“But she’s still my mom” I wanna throw up. People who are saying it’s weird how he...

I love this manga I really do I feel so validated literally nobody ever talks about these conflicting feelings they’re so personal and you wouldn’t get it if you didn’t experience it. When shiraki said “this is my burden give it back to me” I couldn’t stop crying because I know the feeling. I stopped opening up to people because of this. Seeing them crying over me made me feel dull and awkward it’s a hard thing to explain but this is mine. It’s really weird but I didn’t want anyone interfering I don’t even feel comfortable when they shit talk them cause this is my journey this is my relationship with them of course I would’ve loved for someone to save back when things were horrible but right now after things became better I need to heal alone I don’t want people getting sad over me when I got over it it makes me feel weird and uncomfortable idk idk

I think it's worth mentioning that different people process their traumas in different ways. It's not the same for everyone. Some people can't forgive their abusers and they are absolutely fine and valid. Some people heal by moving and forgiving, that's also fine. I went through similar things, and people always act like we must forgive our abusers to move on, that we can't move on by hating all the pain that they have inflicted on their victims and that baffles me. Everyone's experiences and their way of dealing with trauma is valid and real.

I agree and think so too. Everyone’s way of healing is different which is why I didn’t like people dismissing his way of healing and forcing their own opinion on what they think trauma survivors should do to their abusers. It’s okay to hate them and report them to the police and it’s also okay to just live with it as long as you have boundaries and have broken free from the abuse. I just wanted to explain why people who haven’t experienced this may view shiraki’s conclusion as weird, confusing or unrealistic .