I am also like that, I'm always overthinking what I do and say. I can email, write, or do work related things fine. But, when it comes to socializing I always have to be in a group because I feel to awkward talking one-on-one. I feel really bad, there are some guys I think would be really cool friends. But, when it comes to action and making friends whom are boys, I always seem to mess up at a critical point, say something weird, and end up avoiding them for as long as I can.
i have worst. if i hear someone like me tough it's from other people mouth and don't know it's true or false, instincly i make a distant. i don't know why when people like me in romance way, it make me feel wrong. fortunately ( or it seem unfortunately) i never falling in love in my 22 years life.
sometimes i think i'm cruel person to avoid them when they don't make a mistake.
I'm like that too, getting weirdly concious around boys. I'm 22, almost 23, I've never fell in love with anyone, I'm not a really social person and yet, this year I decided to move to England to be a french professor assistant and for a week now I have been living in a flat with a roomate who happens to be a man.
So I don't know about changing this part of yourself, I have no idea how it will evolve with my roomate, if I will end up being comfortable around him or not, but... things happen. You have to give yourself some time and before you know it you will be giving yourself a kick in the ass in order to move on a little.
(I don't know if that make sense... above all that, I have move to England without having a good English at all... I'm not sure I'm going to survive this stressfull year...).
Whenever a guy confess to me i get really awkward (⊙…⊙)around him and i unconsciously avoid him at all cost. Sometimes i think i am being sooo rude with him. Though that was unintentional, since i was only feeling nervous and awkward during that time thats why. Also, i am never good in dealing with guys in person. I just get really conscious and awkward around them (that's why i never had any close "straight" ε=ε=(ノ≧∇≦)ノ guy friends) i think i'm really weird. Tell me i am not the only one whos like this!!! ヽ(`Д´)ノ i want to change this part of me. Heeeeelp!