are we the same person? cuz this is exactly what happens and how i feel :(. I wish i could escape from here
Oh dear, i wish no one else have to experience the same situation. Cus I know how hard it is to get away from it.
have you tried asking around if a friend would live with you elsewhere? like perhaps make a poster for rommates and put it on your college bulletin board, or facebook page, or the school magazine, or something?
No, i have not. I have a bad experience abt sharing my pity live with my friend.
I know they were toxic friend but it troumatize me enough so i don't tell or asking help to anyone in rl, i learned to silence. but i clearly remember when I share my story they said you are not the only one who's not oke so stop telling me this kind of story cuz i have my own problems.
They must've been such a terrible friend then. I hope you don't have a relationship w them anymore
So I just thought, maybe try tutoring your neighbor kids? Or put up a poster near your residing area. There also must be a website which helps you tutor children online
I have tried to find more online site where I can tutor. But it's not easy to be accepted, bcuz I'm not graduated from college yet and i have no formal educational background ( like a proper teacher), i only have experience.
And in my neighborhood there are some teachers from nearby school who also tutoring, and they gave the children school quiz a day bfor the quiz day. So i don't think I could get beat that extra privilege
Yes they are. I have been avoiding them ever since. They still contact me from time to time. Buy they only do that when they need help.
Since very young age my family taught me how I'm supposed to life as a girl. When I was in elementary school, I wake up everyday n go to school, after school I will go home and eat lunch, doing my homework, play or napping. after 4:00 p.m. I have to help my mom clean the house, then clean the table ,wash the dishes from everyone in the house and help her doing the dry laundry
When I was in Middle School my parent open a small store, so everyday after school I have to watch the store until 4:00 p.m., after 4:00 p.m. my dad will come home and help watch the store after that I have to clean the house do the dishes help my mom cook and doing the dry laundry.
This is one of the worse time of my live, i feel that I don't have any freedom. When kids at my age will play and try new things, i am stuck at my boring routine. And the worse part is my dad being physically and mentally abusive. I have a strong memory abt how my dad swear at me, hit me and destroying my stuff. I remember that time he was mad at me bcuz I'm skiping one class and my school called him. So he hit me and slam my head to the wall he said I've embarrassed him. i was very pain full, scared and troumatize
I'm not gonna lie, at this time i was pretty rebellious, i will go out play with my friend, i fight with some girls and i join the naughty gang at my school( I'm was a bully)
In highschool, my live was better. I moved out and life with my cousin sister. We were living at this horrible house, but i just can't happy enough that I leave my parents house
My roommate was not the best roommate, but it's better then my previous condition.
The most important is i have new friends and new environment. They are the sweetest people that meet, i love them so much.
Now I'm in college, my parents pay my collage registration and dorm for the first semester. But i pay the rest while working and tutoring kids online and offline.
But since this pandemic. i Don't have job, i only have 4 kids that i tutored (online). I can't pay the dorm so i have go back to my parents house.
And it was hell.
My dad is to old to hit or slam me now, but his mouth never stop hurting me ALMOST every single day he will come with something to hurt me. And I hate it.
I hate the fact that he still have control over my body and mind.
Thank you for reading my live story