It's implied that he remember his past life/did something. She's not blaming him per se, she know it's not his fault. It's just that thought, if he came back for her last time, maybe her life wouldn't fall apart. That stuffs. She lived her past life sort of holding to that hope to keep her going. It's easy to just blame him but she wants to keep the happier memories she had with him when they were young.
She's in the state that she feels better off only relying to her own self.
Didn't she got a letter from him(?) that says he want to cut ties with her?
It's obviously an contract marriage. Guinevere was at age to get out of the orphanage and Arthur needed a wife. It seems that his friend was the one that found her and propose the arrangement to him. The orphanage gets a donation and she agreed to wed.
BUT I WILL STILL CHEER ON FOR YOU MY GUY!! WOOOOO!!
i have question tho, does that mean he did return the last time?? cause as we saw letters were tampered the last life, does that mean our girl and him got miscommunicated, went into a whole lot miscommunication and basically both suffered...
...well damn but imo should she treat him that coldly tho i mean he did promise but the guy didnt say when and i know she went in whole depressing state but he clearly was not part of that maybe like 0.1, my opinion is that should she blame him?? guinevire (idk the spelling i apoligize), i think she has this idea that if he did return she woudnt have suffered, this is just my opinion lmao idk. THE CHURCH SHE WAS IN WAS SHADY THO like out of nowhere a marriage was discussed and boom marriage happy family and crazy in-laws, it was more of a cult for me tbh that shady priest(or was it the nun lmao) and his smile gives me the creeps. all in all great story, im open for a discussion tho, its nice reading a story like this, im frustrated about girly still but we'll see (=・ω・=)