The seme just has a lot of traumas because of his childhood. Honestly, in this chapter, he acted like someone with anxiety. I mean, I suffer from it and I get caught up in my head in the exact same way. You can't stop being pessimistic and overthinking all the time. And obviously you hide those negative thoughts, except for when you're near your limit, like he did with his father.
The seme just has a lot of traumas because of his childhood. Honestly, in this chapter, he acted like someone with anxiety. I mean, I suffer from it and I get caught up in my head in the exact same way. You can't stop being pessimistic and overthinking all the time. And obviously you hide those negative thoughts, except for when you're near your limit, like he did with his father.