I came here to share my one sided love for over 5 years. Grade 8: It started when he cal...

aoi chan ^^ June 28, 2021 8:32 am

I came here to share my one sided love for over 5 years.

Grade 8:

It started when he called me "otaku" because he discovered that I love watching anime around those times. He never missed calling me that nickname at first I find it super annoying, that it turn out I slowly fell for him.

It was the middle of the school year when I decided to confess my feelings for him. He never gave me a reply to my confession. I just let it be. Little by little the atmosphere between us became so awkward. Also during those times I unconciously showing to everyone that I have feelings for him.

Grade 9:

It was the most awkward year I ever have. It is almost we avoid each other intentionaly. But maybe it is not a good idea, because we always ended up as a groupmate in every group activites we have.

We became more like "not-so-fond" to each other whenever our MAPEH subject always gave us a task where we should do a "ballroom" or something that invovles by pairing. Actually it was the only subject that we are not in the same group.

He always watching every groups that performing, but when it comes to our group, he always writing or talking or rather leaving the classroom. It hurts, because my confession ruined our friendship.

Grade 10:

It was the last year of our junior high. My friends always telling me that "enjoy it while he still our classmates". Of course despite of the awkwardness I decided to take this oppurtunity.

Whenever I saw him, I always call him "crush". He never showed me an annoyed expression or anything. So I continued it until I'm the one who got embarrassed and stop it.

Until last period of our morning class ended. I was with my friend when he is behind us. With our other classmate. They teased him like "i love u please let me join u in your umbrella" and he was like "no" of course me that still has a feeling for him heard that and I looked at them and said "pssst! Stop" with matching glare.

Reality slapped me when I saw them with a shocked expression and they appologize jokingly. Afternoon classes came and my classmates who teased him told me that "after you said that and left he mummbled, "don't get my hopes high". " with grin in their face. I didn't believe on what they said, because it is indeed impossible.

Months passed and business plan defense come to an end. He gave me a left over of his cupcakes (that's his business all about) and my classmates saw us and told us that "u should take a picture before eating it so that u will have a remembrance." Dang I should listen to what they said. I regret it right now.

Our Araling Panlipunan (social studies, i dunno if it is correct term) decided to make a a debate between every groups. I'm not that a genius person but our teacher appoints me to lead the group. He is also a leader.

No one's want to debate against him, but for me it is the only gift that I can give myself. So I asked our teacher to be our his opponent and he agreed. It was fun, tho we lose.

Grade 11:

We became a senior high student. He left and studied in other school and I stayed.

We don't have any communications but whenever we saw each other we say "hi" and our "hello" to each other.

Grade 12:

I decided to let my feelings go. Then I suddenly dreamed about him. The scenarios in my dreams is he's always confessing his feelings for me.

It always same scenarios. At this point its like I'm just hurting myself more. I felt like my hopes are getting higher each day.

"Maybe its not infatuated anymore. More like, I love him."


.........

I also have two bestfriends who knows how I felt about him and one of them is also the bestfriend of the man I love. That's why I suddenly felt somehow connected on the story, tho we didn't end up to each other.

Welp I know no one's gonna read my comment, but I just wanna share my one sided love in this comment section.

Thanks for sharing this wonderful manga to us♡

Responses
    morningstar July 10, 2021 6:18 pm

    omg I’m glad i reread this story and I’m glad that i’ve red your story, im hoping the best for you and someday find someone that can reciprocate your feelings too ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶

    aoi chan ^^ July 11, 2021 6:00 am
    omg I’m glad i reread this story and I’m glad that i’ve red your story, im hoping the best for you and someday find someone that can reciprocate your feelings too ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ morningstar

    Awieeee you're so sweet, thank you♡ I didn't expect that you will read my comment (its super long huhuhu) anyways thank you so much~!

    how to unsee July 18, 2021 3:30 pm

    guurrll gravee nmn love story mo wish u all the best balang araw makakahanap kden ng taong magmamahal sau ng totoo
    ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~

    aoi chan ^^ July 19, 2021 11:06 am
    guurrll gravee nmn love story mo wish u all the best balang araw makakahanap kden ng taong magmamahal sau ng totooヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~ how to unsee

    Thank you girl♡ actually I cofessed to him again last July 13. Well atleast I already got a reply to him for almost 5 years. Yep I got rejected.

    Atleast it is my time to let my feelings go.

    Thank you so much girl♡ I hope too na sana dumating siya sa tamang oras, sa tamang lugar at sa tamang sitwasyon♡

    Clara July 24, 2021 11:31 am

    Ooh your story is so good!
    I already invented a final plot for you in my head while reading, and knowing that you got rejected properly makes my final version of your love life makes somewhat sense, sorry about imagining a future for you.

    In real life we need to face things like you did, with the heads up, you are very brave for confess your love not once but twice!!
    Like c'mon he wasn't the one for you if he couldn't see that!
    I hope you a beautiful love life with someone who can love you much more than you loved this guy and that you can be happy!! (๑•ㅂ•)و✧
    I loved reading your story thanks for sharing ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ノ~

    aoi chan ^^ July 24, 2021 2:42 pm
    Ooh your story is so good! I already invented a final plot for you in my head while reading, and knowing that you got rejected properly makes my final version of your love life makes somewhat sense, sorry about... Clara

    Thank you so much♡♡♡

    Actually I am too, I thought after confessing to him at the second time maybe he'll reciprocate my feelings. Then I remembered that not all confession and scenarios will end up like any other plot (like mine) but its all okay. Besides am not rushing all things. Atleast am very satisfied that letting my feelings know is enough for me. Thank you so much again♡♡

    aoi chan ^^ July 24, 2021 2:43 pm

    You guys knows how to make someone's cry huhuhu, seriously am really thankful. Tho words can't express my gratitude towards you all, but am super duper thankful. I hope that yaoi gods will bless you all.

    Thank you for reading a long comment♡

    Misawa218 May 9, 2024 8:06 pm

    Wow, what a great love story. I admire people who has courage to confess their love and facing the consequences esp. bad ones with their head high. You'll find someone who's gonna match you in and out. Wahahahahah kumurot sa puso ko. I think sa nabasa ko sya ung great love mo. I remember tuloy ung 1st ever unrequited love ko, can you believe na crush ko sya from grade 2 until grade 4 pero I need to wake up na Tama na Kasi alam ko na to ehh, alam ko Ang ending... Wahahaa nostalgic ano na Kya sya ngaun? Kamusta na Kya sya? Alam ko lng pangalan nya ska mukha Nung mga bata pa kmi