I'm sorry you had those experiences! I've had some bad experiences myself, but I still never felt like that, that it would make me more cowardly. Quite the opposite actually, I became more honest, by the time I was twenty I just stopped playing the game. All those dating games you learn to play are really just a bunch of crap, I'm more like Minami, honestly and openly express how I feel and what I want. And now I have the perfect relationship thanks to it. I never hide or keep anything to myself, all my desires, all my worries and insecurities, all my dreams and plans for the future and all my love is right out there in the open. When we met, me and my partner, I was also very very afraid of being betrayed and cast aside but we honestly talked about it (many times) and they didn't blame me for being distrustful and eventually over the years the fear subsided until I have no fears and no distrust left. I hope that you too can find the strength to leave the past behind you and feel safe in your relationship/s.
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Sometimes bad experiences make us stronger and more resilient, have faith in your new partner and if it doesn't work out you will get up and try again, don't be discouraged by others actions it's a bad reflection on them not you, you got this I believe in you!! (⌒▽⌒)
5 years with my previous boufriend, He not only cheat various times He went for a woman and fall in love with her as He keept seeing me. I really loved him and decided to hold and stay even so until He just left me for the girl.
I have a honest, truthfully and loving new boyfriend now but the quote is totally right: Every love relationship you have just make you more cowardly.
Is allways like just waiting when He will say to me "I'm sorry, I slept with someone else", "I'm sorry but theres a woman I fell for", "I didn't want it to be like thid, it just happen", all those stuff... It feels like is just a matter of time, even if I know He is not that kind of person.
I was almost sure Minami really cheated, but... I cried like a girly teen when everything get solved Uu. It really was kind of a rrlief... A hope, maybe?