HELP

searching for this yaoi where the uke when he was a child after school in the storm he met a guy and the guy said he would help him find his house the guy instead rapes him and he ran to his bestfriends house and was hysterically crying the bestfriend comforted him when they grew older the bestfriend develops feelings for him the uke likes him too but the bestfriend said they cant be together cuz he thinks that if they got together he will be like the guy that raped him in the park or sum but the uke was like no and ye i got lazy to type anyways they get together and blah blah blah HELP PLS IVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR IT FOR AGES