https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/kimi_ni_ienai_koto_ga_aru/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/bokura_ga_koi_wo_ushinau_riyuu/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/intertwining_lives/
i don't know if you'll like these but here you go
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/blood_bank/ (sort of?)
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/shounen_no_kyoukai/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/yondaime_ooyamato_tatsuyuki/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/crash_into_me/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/ouroboros_1/
https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/hitori_to_hitori_no_3650nichi/
Hey people of earth! I want really really sad dramatic, traumatic BL-YAOI manhwa and manhua recs.. thanks (yes I'm a psycho who likes pain)