To be honest

there was one K-Drama that amazed me, where the father of the male lead I think was some famous author who held a speech at a University and they asked him about love advice and how he lived so happy and in love with his wife of many decades. And he explained something that is very clear, but that people always ignore because of their pride and the fear to hurt their own pride: That love is not a game or gamble. You should not play any games, not manipulate things and make it murky. But keep the love you felt from the beginning as beautiful as day one, by being honest to yourself and the person that inspires the love you are feeling. It is also an active word. You love as long as you love, you stop to love if you don't actively love anymore. So just love them. It can happen that the other person is not inspired by you to feel the same love, but then you can just thank them for their honesty and not giving you hope for more. Go and live in quiet with your feelings, without making them into an obsession or anything dark, just let them flow. One day you can just appreciate, that once in your life there was this person that inspired you to feel that love. It can stay as positive memories. All the bad experience people have always came when you didn't JUST love, but started to listen to your ego and played weird twisted games trying to WIN something....love is not something to win, but something that grows through some sort of inspiration by seeing snippets of the essence of a human that resonates with you....


So if i was uke, I would be pissed off as well. Sure, he was also not curagous to confess his love, because he didn't want to lose his best friend/their relationship. But the moment seme started playing games, I would may be never be a able to forget him trying to play that kind of shit came to get something out of uke....to make me feel like that...to play with me, my trust and try and get some reaction out of me through shit lies and games.....i would reject him, because I would be sad that the person i loved so honestly for myself made a game out of our relationship and decided to be a manipulative ass instead of just do nothing or be honest....i dunno....that is also how i gave up on a person i loved as well...he tried to get me jealous even though i was so obvious about my attraction, because he was dunno twisted asshole who got a rise out of trying to get some reactions out of me and was insecure and i didn't want something impure like that ....it felt wrong it just made me sad instead of happy....urgh i am getting more and more pissed at this bitch and his friend like what friend are you to play along and deceive a person when you SEE and KNOW the uke is suffering....