She’s not debasing herself lol. And the reason was clearly stated: because he’ll die if he doesn’t take care of it with someone. You might have missed it because she’s not acknowledging it with but the very fact that she went this far for him actually confirms the fact that she already has feelings for him and probably hates him and herself because of it.
Lol I don’t know much about aphrodisiacs, but in every story I’ve read, apparently the hand just isn’t enough.
Also the fact is, she actually started to lower her guard around him after he told her about his past and started falling for him in the process. It’s not hard to miss unless you choose to listen to nothing but her words instead of her facial expressions and actions, because it’s pretty obvious she’s just lying to herself since she hates herself and him for feeling that way.
Also there’s a huge difference between the version of him that was manipulated into killing her and her family in a past life he doesn’t even remember and this version of him who has learned that his girlfriend is a manipulative, self-serving snake who took advantage of his trauma. So all he’s truly done to her in this lifetime, is tell her that he won’t love her or be a husband to her since he already had a girlfriend…
And at the risk of making you lose further connection: she’s not infertile and they’re an end game couple.
They look like oversized bobble heads that I can't take the plot seriously anymore. Compare the most recent chapter to chapter 1 and the whole vibe is off. Then she calls herself a whre cause they slept together without being in love, and i'm like gf plz no. He should've just used his right hand.