Yeah, I'm glad you understand what I mean. I don't think that Jooin should just go ahead and forgive him and get together with him BECAUSE Yahwi is feeling this way. I moreso just feel bad and think that how he was treated and stuff is sad and that, on his own, I don't think he should be seen as a total monster
He is a monster if he can do shit like that and not change a shade, it obviously wasn’t wanted on Jooin’s part. Just because he eventually gave in doesn’t mean that it was okay, he didn’t want it from the beginning and didn’t give consent. Atp I don’t really give a fuck about his childhood, he shouldn’t have done what he did. He’s an emotional abuser and rapist, it’s like he has Jooin and a spider web and he knows it because everytime he comes back. There are other ways to get your point across.
What I'm getting here is that Yahwi is VERY emotionally constipated and thus has no idea what it looks like when someone genuinely cares about him and also has no idea how to SHOW someone that he genuinely cares about them and he's really trying to understand all of these new feelings and I just- *cries* I'M IN TEARS THIS IS SO UPSETTING AND SAD YA'LL ARE JUST MEAN I'm aware that the stuff he did to Jooin wasn't good (not at all excusing him for that) but I still have some sympathy for the poor man since he just GENUINELY seems like he didn't know what to say or do or know what anything meant OTL