also back in chapter 11, when seowoo was thinking, and the "... a selfish thought popped up, like.... maybe jaewoo exists to play my part for me." that made me feel sick to my stomach, like i wanted to puke. how could you EVER think that about your little brother, he's his own separate person, its so demeaning. even thinking it selfishly means your thinking it at all. he's doing this for you because HE ALWAYS has.
the flashback where their parents were so overbearingly caring towards seowoo and practically ignoring jaewoo made me so sad, like that is obviously the reason he is the way he is. he got used to seowoo being treated better, so when he pretended to be seowoo, people would treat HIM nicer, and he craved that. that's why he said he keeps doing it, like pavlov's theory. and also does seowoo just want jaewoo to pretend to be him FOREVER?? like, hunny please please please gain confidence and talk to raon yourself, otherwise your gonna get hurt Σ(っ°Д °;)っ
ahhhhhh im so conflicted. jaewoo can be a bit of an ass sometimes but i feel for him so much, and seowoo is so sweet but his action, intentions, and thoughts towards raon and jaewoo pretending to be him make me feel sick.
"I don't like how seowoo is making jaewoo lie for him." same, but I like that he is being sincere towards reon at least, thats more then I can say for jawwoo.
its not seowoos fault their parents neglected jaewoo though, and I dont think they were wrong worrying about his health when he was an baby and coddling him out of worry but as time when on and he got older, his health was no longer being that much of an issue, it obviously hurt his abilities to be independent and grow on his own, so they're parents attributed to saewoo's over reliance on jaewoo for everything, which effected his self own self confidence. not to mention jaewoo didn't receive the affection and support he needed to feel like his own person.
it was just bad parenting really
exactly! they both got messed up because of it!
saying ahead of time, not hating here, just thinking rationally.
I don't like how seowoo is making jaewoo lie for him. its not going to end well for either of them, and i feel awful cause seowoo is a sweet character but it's not going to end well for him. also the fact that he calls raon "ohn", by his pseudonym, makes me feel like he's in love with the fantasy that he's created of raon. also, the fact that seowoo didn't see how raon was in distress in the pool, only saw him "sparkling" concerns me. it's seems like he doesn't see him as "him", more as his pretty, brave, confident persona of "ohn", and it makes me sad because I like seowoo, he's such a sweet character, but i feel it in my bones it ain't gonna end well, for either.
i also think jaewoo is gonna stop being an asshole, and lowkey feel like raon is going to fall for jaewoo, not seowoo. he only got flutters really around jaewoo when he was pretending to be seowoo, and only lingered on seowoo because of how differently he acted in comparison to what he is used to (meaning jaewoo pretending to be seowoo).
im so conflicted because i like seowoo but i don't think raon will go with seowoo. ahhh im so sad now and so scared!! ╥﹏╥