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I don't know you or what your going true. Your story almost made me Cry because it's relatable to what I went true in my life. All I can say is do something for you. It's hard now but you can start with little things. Your never to late to start doing things for you, to appreciate yourself. You could try talking to a therapist, that helped me a lot to stop caring about what my mom wanted from me. I learned to speak up more and care les about what she wanted from me.
Just wanted to tell you your not alone and you can live instead of surviving.
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When she was describing her life back home and her relationship with her parents I cried... I feel like I'm experiencing those same situations in my life and the reality of it is hard. The career and path my parents are pushing me into are suffocating and even though they pushed me into it they seem to take no interest in it or my life. It hurts so much that they can't see it. I feel like I've been ignored half my life and the half where they didn't ignore me was only out of necessity rather than love and actually wanting to be with or close to me as a person... But there's really nothing I can do to change the way they see me and I'm too far into this path to turn back or give up and I'm terrified that I'll have to live the rest of my life like this. At what point will I stop caring and live in this reality despite the pain. Live is not the right word, it would be more fitting to say surviving...