head empty just jaemin

it doesn't... matter??? consent is a YES. It's has to be a complete and clear yes, he shouldn't have to push him off???? that isn't his job?? he didn't ask to be sexually assaulted. and Jaemin forced himself on Tom multiple times as well

i'm not defending the assault, never and consent is a yes ofc. but the problem is when they kissed tom had multiple chances to ran away... idk he could've bit his lip, hit his nose with his head?? but rather he kissed him back and was like "no i actually didnt want it bro" but then he kept talking to him and went to his house... who does that after getting assaulted? then, when tom and that guy masturbated together he also had chances. he was like "oh no i'm weak" but he actually isn't, we saw how he threw punches.
as a girl i saw too many crazy dudes that did not understand the meaning of "no" but i never shoved my tongue down their throat or let them touch me, and i definitely don't go that dudes' house where we'll obviously be alone after the assault.
i feel like that idea made tom curious until things got serious last time

ur disgusting

literally

Yup

I think he did reflect on his actions later and grew to love more but he still never told him the whole truth about his feelings that swayed. I think he just didn't love Jaemin that much before he finally realised he's now going to lose what he has. He did say sth like that in in chap 43. He wasn't so much into it first even though he confessed first but Jaemin was. Huh it was just 2 months since they'd first met...bruh Jaemin don't fall so fast for your heart's sake lol

Still I don't think Jaemin would've left after knowing. (I would've liked him to for a bit atleast). Why? Coz he did know. He came to know something was up after finding the earring, when he asked whether Tom loved him. And definitely after they met again and Tom told him that he couldn't say a firm no and he didn't recognise himself and thought Jaemin would think he's swayed(he definitely was atleast till the handjob blackmail scene). So he's like that I think.

i know this is old but this is such a bad take like you're actually a horrible person...

Oh I remember reading it after so long. I love Jaemin as well ! Not sure if he's the best but I do wish him well and think he deserves someone who'd love him n only have eyes for him, coz he's just like that. He was kinda forceful n immature at the start tho. Not my fav story tho it left me heartbroken. I actually had to erase most of it but I got pinged haha. Atleast it ended okay. I The author wrote at the end that they regret not being able to express the feelings well, so I guess it's because of that but everyone starts rough around the edges n grows so yeah.

the story is very badly written. author shouldn't have written ab rape if they don't know how to write ab it

Yeah that and I never could actually gauge Tom's inner feelings. He was always talking to himself but it was never show from a neutral perspective so it ended without me as a reader ever knowing what he actually felt? Ofcourse I know he felt harrassed. Was there something else too? Was he attracted? Did it have to be Haejoon or anyone would've been fine? He was afterall thinking about having sex with 'other people' so I wondered where did HJ stand in his heart? They mixed that attractive with assault and then made it look like even though Tom didn't opt to cheat, he still was responsive. Haha. They should've made it clear that it was only a pent up bodily reaction. Or if it was curiousity to do it with others then they should've mentioned that. One thing is clear that he was assaulted but it's much more complex coz they insert this monologues which present a vague picture. Also, I never understood what it meant when he said in chay39, "If I tell the full truth about how I felt about HJ at that time to Jaemin, it's obvious what he'll think of me". Well, WHAT did he feels? It should only be disgust right? But no it's insinuated that it was more. But istg I still don't fully get what it was.

Omg so many typos