It almost seems like she enjoyed seeing the fl cry, like here is someone who is sadder the...

i honestly don't understand why you thought that. It was apparent that she was sad not being able to help anyone being in her position. She obv felt guilty for the stuff that has happened "bc of her" when it's literally the crown prince & empress's fault. Her mother raised her to survive and that's her goal but she also feels extremely guilty and powerless bc she literally is powerless. So I gotta disagree with you on this. I honestly don't see why you thought she was happy about it... did u understand this chapter at all??