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life really is crazy. how things can just end so simply. i hope you find other reasons to keep going other than family :)
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life really is crazy. how things can just end so simply. i hope you find other reasons to keep going other than family :)
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tbh this rlly hits hard for me cuz ive been in hamins place. thankfully i didnt do it, but i can still remember how high up i was and how i felt- knowing that if i just took that one step and jumped it would all be over. everything would come to an end; it was a strangely comforting feeling. i was really so close to jumping, but i suddenly thought about my family, especially my
younger sister. she was about 8/9 at that time and thinking about what my family would go through if i had actually done it was terrible. i mean, she’s still a kid for gods sake what was i thinking? and then a rush of shame and guilt washed over me, i still feel the shame to this day. ive had a few close calls since then and they all failed. my family never found out about any of my attempts, which is good ig. i wouldnt be able to face them if they did. i thinks this hits close to home bc my sister is exactly like jaemin and really the only thing keeping me going rn is my family. i think the authors doing really well surrounding the aftermath of everything, hamins feelings, jaemins feelings, the raw emotions. gosh its so good.
anyways sorry this was a little graphic and long but i just felt like saying something