Shiratoni must be feeling a sense of disgust towards himself. Thats why he doesn't let anyone touch him and clean his hands abruptly to disappear "germs." One possible reason Shiratoni didn't told his father might be due to the feeling of guilt. He felt that he was disgusting when he masturbated from the sexual scene he saw between his father and that slutty girl. And also the fact that that stupid girl called him disgusting. What that f*** girl did was just horrendous. Why would she do that? She must have psychological issues to traumatized a little kid and try to compete for the father's love.
I was talking about Shiratoni telling his Father the the girl said that him loving his father was disgusting, that happened before the other scene. Personally speaking if I was the way I was as a kid then I know that I'd tell my parent what really happened, and I'd jump out of that closet and dragged that bitch by the hair off my Father. I'd get rid of her fast or if my father refused to listen I'm off to my Grandparents who I'd tell everything too and they would so haul off on him later. I gotta stop coming up with idea's for stories when reading Yaoi I want to alter.
-.- "shiratoni"??? shirotani maybe....
Very good yaoi. There is a lot of depth in this.
Though personally I don't know why Shirotani just didn't tell him Father the truth. It doesn't really make sense unless there is something more even earlier in his childhood that kept him from doing so. I just hope that bitch High School girl gets what she deserves.