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Exactly! She's been mentally and physically abused her entire life, since she was a small child. And the only parent figure she's ever had treats her as if she's utterly worthless. Not to mention she's never been shown kindness by any of the other people around her, and she's never even ever left her house nor had a proper education. It's amazing enough that she even has the desire to change, and she has been making visible improvements, even if it's not at the rate that some impatient readers would like to see.
They're legit showing her trauma affect her and how she's trying so desperately to change and try to heal the trauma. But yall gotta remember that's years, 2 lifetimes of trauma she can't just get over it. She grew up with the mindset of being ugly, unqualified and ungraceful. Trauma that comes from that young of an age is extremely hard to get over; especially when it's from a parent figure that you're supposed to look up to and love. That's why many children that are in abusive households never say anything because they believe it's normal.