For me, I always laughed at fictional characters crying as a kid (Almost like a child seeing nude people on the screen), and just seeing fictional characters go through physical pain was always "nice" to me (I don't really get aroused by it, but I feel like I've seen my crush or like I fell in love or smth, lol). But in real life I'm very disturbed and genuinely sad when I see real people go through the same things, so it's more like I'm a sadist for fictional characters, but I literally can't kill a bug and literally can't pick a flower irl because I feel bad for them XD
So yeah, it's possible. It is possible that I might have a little sadism in me irl too, but I feel like maybe that was a long time ago? I don't feel the same anymore, so...
Why am I even sharing this... Oversharing spotted XD But I just wanted to explain that you might be right, but I feel like there are actual people who are just sadists for fiction, or maybe they like tall men/women in fiction but short men/women irl... I can't 100% tell tho..
Don't worry, I kind of feel the same when I'm reading but I can't tell the same irl though as I only went as far as just applying minor dominance without applying pain to my bf. The guilt just won't leave, and there's this approval you have to worry about. And even if you get the approval you want, the guilt would just win your conscience over cuz you know what pain is. Being a sadist takes a lot of guts and whatsoever so let's just stick with fictional pleasure (≧∀≦)
IS IT POSSIBLE THAT I MAY BE LOW-KEY A SADIST?!?!? His messed up face was reaaaaAALLY... stimulating to me.
I like teasing people, yes, I like melting faces in pleasure, also yes, but I can't stand actually hurting someone even if they like it, or at least I think so????
Please don't awaken something in me ( ̄∇ ̄")