Idk, all the characters felt prty passive to me. There wasn't any couple I rooted for, except maybe Hyunwoo and Yuna's ex lol. Jun and Subin were really boring together.. you can say that's just a mature/"realistic" relationship but fuck lol did they have even one thing in common? I think Jun is more invested, but it's also his MO to get attached fast. While Subin just doesn't want to be alone. They seem happy together but it's just sad to me. Sidenote, Hyunwoo/Subin is just as fine a pairing, no need to insult people over it. I like reading fiction for the fantasy, it's different from reality.
Hi, queer person here who had to deal with a shit ton of internalized homophobia, here to talk about the difference between fantasy and reality when it comes to relationships. I'm going to take a wild guess here and say the people who wanted Subin to end up with Hyunwoo are either a) straight, b) have never dealt with an unhealthy relationship before or c) are the weirdos who like to over-romanticize BL because Y'ALL ARE LIVING IN A FUCKING FANTASY.
You guys don't get a say in this because you cannot see the story the author wanted to portray, and it wasn't just about moving on from a crush or finding love, it has a lot to unpack about questioning one's sexuality too!
The extras where a handful of characters gave their thoughts on marriage or love just proves that! We have Subin who hates uncertainties because that's all he's grown used to, be it with his love or with himself. We have Jun, who doesn't really care as long as he could have Subin, because Subin makes him feel the love he's been searching for. We have Hyunwoo who thinks relationships are just passing things that have an inevitable end, resulting in him not knowing what to do when he realizes he WANTS an exclusive relationship with Subin- but he was confused as fuck and he brushes off talks regarding his sexuality, too deep in denial to be able to actually give Subin what he wants.
Yuna-noona who was very open-minded about other people's sexualities and relationships but only looked for casual, non-committal partners because she can't be bothered. Min Jihun, the openly bisexual, who's lovesick and stuck and craves for permanence and validation in others.
I'd also like to add that Jihun and Hyunwoo ending the story perfectly loops back to the beginning, because Jihun is exactly what Subin used to be, hung-up in finding happiness in someone else. It just means Hyunwoo has another fool of a friend, while he, himself, still has a lot of confusion he needs to settle.
Jun is not toxic, might I add as well. He was the better choice from the start. Wanna know why? Because Hyunwoo had five years, 5 YEARS and it still ended in a travesty whilst Hyunwoo had months and he still managed to make Subin feel wanted and important and worthy, all the while not making Subin feel dependent on him because he wanted Subin to nurture love for himself.
If anything, Hyunwoo was the toxic one for "experimenting" with his identity with a person who's both trying to move on from him and was already in a relationship. You don't get brownie points for admitting to your wrongs, or not asking for consent, and you most certainly shouldn't be excused for trying to kiss an already taken person! Even if he knew he was going to be forgiven, that was unfair to both Subin and Jun.
Bottom line is, Hyunwoo needs to work with himself (hopefully he and Jihun can work things out) and Jun deserves to be able to love Subin.
While their relationship could use work, arguments and jealousy are all very valid elements! Besides, Jun wants to work things out, in comparison to Hyunwoo who thinks all of that was pointless and they would always have the option to break up anyways. He isn't in the right headspace to be in a committed relationship and that's exactly what Subin needs after the 5 years of push and pull he played, it's also exactly what Jun could give him.
Thanks for tuning into my rant, see you next time in my next read lmao bye