i nearly cried reading this because i could relate to the guilt so much, esp the hypersexu...

i nearly cried reading this because i could relate to the guilt so much, esp the hypersexuality. the flashbacks whilst masturbating, getting off of it and feeling like a freak, i found myself wanting to recreate my trauma and felt disgusting for it, when what i really wanted was to find my way out of this feeling of helplessness and loss of control