so..

uhh ok ive been staying farrr away from this manhwa just bc i can so easily sense the toxicity yk? but i decided to give it a try.... FUCK. this story got me so messed up and feelin so many emotions all at once. anyway, starting with geon. haa, idk what yall are on, but NAH i dont ship him with kyungsoo. do yall not remember what he did to him? while i was reading that i was thinking the whole time that i wouldve kms already if i were kyungsoo. not only rape but abuse??? nah i aint holding out. idc if he actually WILL treat him nice if they date. no. ok next, dong hyuk. honestly this one was so disappointing. like before, they had so much potential and seemed like they both genuinely enjoyed being around each other. then after they find each other again, we find out hes now a fucking crazy sex maniac?? like EXCUSE ME, he got HARD looking at kyungsoo getting raped???? immediately no. and after they started living together, all dong hyuk would think about was sex. its so sad bc he changed so much, it seemed to me like kyungsoo enjoyed being with him before but not as much now since its just the same sex that he used to have every day anyways. and tbh kyungsoo should not be apologizing for how dong hyuk changed. he changed by HIMSELF, they aint even have sex in the past. he most likely changed after seeing him raped and get hard. yep... also, i mean, the whole deal with him threatening yule to stab himself was kinda refreshing cuz thats kinda what i wanted to happen, like kyungsoo dying and yule going all crazy and regret mode. but still i kinda hate him.. onto kyungsoo. i felt so bad for him that i cried every chapter, but honestly??? he kinda fucking annoys me. all he did for 3 years was hide from his rapist, he finds love, but then gets found by yule and raped again, and then realizes he is still madly in love with his rapist. it hurt dong hyuk a lot since anyone would expect a victim to NOT be in love with their rapist, and dong hyuk went through quite a lot bc of him too. k but the whole idea of being in love w ur rapist is kinda insane. i mean, i kinda get it??? no i dont.. but i do. i mean, hes probably still hoping that he didnt change and is still the sweet guy, unfortunately that is not true. and ofc, yule's a dick and needs to go to fucking jail, along with his buddies, oh and geon. idc about his traumatic childhood past or his lack of humanity, those dont fucking excuse his actions. he had his lover gangraped then raped him every single day. just no.

overall, i hate all of these fucking characters. im still trying to figure out the ~secret meaning~ behind the ending cuz, aint no way the writer wrote that and was like "hmm thats good :D". rated it 3/5.

one thing they couldve elaborated more on was their mother's death. yeah, she died, but like she just fell by accident or sumn?? idk like geon be thinkin yule pushed him, while yule is saying he didnt..

k but seeing how at the end kyungsoo met up with yule again, im guessing hes gonna give him another chance?? sooo he didnt learn his lesson after all, ok. like why tf is yule suddenly regretting everything that he did to kyungsoo? after EVERYTHING. absolutely fucking no. kyungsoo finally was free from everyone yet decided to give his rapist another chance LMFAOOO

at this point idc. kyungsoo says he enjoys the rape- i mean sex with yule so.. get it i guess

oh also "hogu" means dumb/idiot/pushover and the title is hogu hagyeongsu, so..