So I read from the spoilers that the MC still had that bastard ex in his heart when he bre...

l,,, no happy ending it has the sadest most miserable ending ever,, adn the novel hurts even more

It is a story about how love wrecked ukes life,, and how love destroyed him rendering him unable to get up again,,,
At first he endured and endured the struggle and the harhsio,, all the pain cause by his lover, in hope of saving his live life, and in hope his lover would choose him

Which in the end he still lives him,, he has loved him for more than 10 years, but in the end the amount of love he had for him could not make the other love him as much,, and so for the sake of himself he leaves in hope of having peaceful last moments in which he reflected on his love,,, which he just couldn't let go off



The doctor met him at the time he was struggling the most and fell in love with him,,, however the uke had someone else in his heart, and even when he left he was soo exhausted that he jsut wanted to live the remaininf days he has quietly


There are other reasons for why this is so miserable and I can telm u if u eat

I tried to make it as vague as possible

Ya know thank u for ur reply...I think I better not read this coz I cant take it..if I read this imma sulk over it for about a week which I am not ready for & it's not good for my mental health as well, this happened with me few times & what's worst is when I fall for 2nd lead ...but the story is beautifully written indeed,the suffering u mentioned I could fell them all,I would have definately read this if the uke atleast loved the doctor at the end but he left the world with that bastard in his heart,that's what most frustrating anyways tysm for explaining again...(づ￣ ³￣)づ

If you want angst I can tell you

I cried form reading a spoiler (not even the story yet) and was depressed for a while because of it

The things that happen are so painful by themselves,, just hearing about them gives you ehart ache,
Now imagine how much worse the heart ache would be when you link the events to chara tees which you make a connection with as you read the story, characters that come tk life in the storyline and one's wiht 3D emotions

Ya it hurts don't read it

I just came here
Looked at the cover
Cried for half an hour after answering your comments, cz I remembered the story

This is a wake up call for for anyone about to start a relashinship

I'm scarred of liking people honestly


BTW I recommend you read 'love mode' Instead
It does have a bit of tragedy and stuff but it's made in a way that you accept it and kinda has this hopeful filter on everybting
And super good ending for everyone

Omyyy indeed I was depressed the whole day today & my family was like wth is wrong with ya, I replied idk I miss somebody but i have no idea who n I was sad the whole day geezz..little do they know that I was depressed about a manga character which I havent started reading yet sounds funny but people like me n you know how that kindof suffering is...its so good to talk to similar mind...& tbh after this spoilers I am also kinda thinking..if it hurts to truly love someone I rather not love（￣へ￣）& I m gonna start reading love model just as u recommended....tysm...ohh just wanted to ask, I saw the uke & doctor kissed, was it without any love from uke's side? I mean were they in relation be it in novel or manhua? Or they just live together as friends? Does the uke never say he likes him,are they not a couple okkk I get that uke was in love with the bastard till the end still was he not in love relation with the doctor?

At one point the uke leaves the seme

And goes with the doctor, he owes the doctor so much,,, he still lives the seme,, but he decides to offer himself to the doctor,, cz he owes him so much,,,, and spends the rest of his days with hte doctor,,, and then tells the doctor in another life he will fall in love with him

Also Yessss
Super sensitive and people don't understanddddddd

Alos ukes death is 100 percent the semes fault

Totally abs absolutely trash seme here

Omygod now this statement is making me sad all over again...how I wished there would be afterlife where they both can fall in love & be happy forever

Ihv never hated any seme as much as I m hating this bastard...seriously there r tones of trash semes out there but I seem to forgive them somehow but this one right here is just..uggs I cant

He didn't only ruin ukes life

But also the guy he cheated with (he drove him to suicide), cz the guy didn't know he was a side chick and truly loved him,, but when he found out, he still wanted to be with him in hope of getting loved back
He became his fuck buddy and did everything for him,,, but in the end he was disposed, and lost his drive in life,, comitiing suicide

He cheated with so many people too

And ya the doctor can never love again

Omyyy God he is such a piece of trash ...like seriously he has ruined so many people's life..I feel so bad for people who lov this piece of shit...just why why do people fall for garbage like him & a treasure like the doctor ends up being without love...I mean this is kinda realistic coz people indeed fall for cheaters

And at one point he victimised himself and make it seem as if he's been wronged


This story hit harder and I remembered it recently (which lead me to see your comment) because if an event that just happened to my fried this Friday
Her boyfriend cheated on her and she broke up,, she liked him so much, and wanted to marry him,,, she gave him her everything, despite everyone's opposition,,, she really gave him soo much
And he cheated so balantly

She said she should've listened to her mom
She shouldn't have strayed if she knew it would've ended up like this

That must hurt alot..uggghhh why this cheaters geeezzz.. I hope your friend finds a better person who loves her genuinely...I have seen many around my friend circles who gets cheated but despite the fact that some endup forgiving those garbage...seriously this is reality,when the cheater bf comeback & beg them for forgiveness they just forgive them so easily..I mean like wtf