ch 43 raw summary

This one comes with a trigger warning so proceed with caution! SPOILERS BELOW



TW: Choking play/asphyxiation

Sooyoung comes back to his uncle's gravesite because he has nowhere else to go, seemingly still moody about seeing Taeseung interacting with Yawon. The building manager comes up to him and tells SY that someone from his family stopped by the altar earlier to bring flowers. The manager doesn't know the name of the person but says that she thinks it's family because only someone who can give personal information about the deceased and their relatives are allowed to visit the altar. She gives SY a list of the people who signed in and SY thinks it's his father (he thought he was dead), but isn't completely sure due to the signature being unidentifiable. Then he sees 13 missed calls from Taeseung and ignores the 14th one -- too annoyed to take the call.

But then in comes Taeseung and he asks SY why he didn't pick up his calls. SY yells that he doesn't want to see TS's face and tells him to leave. THEN we have TS kneeling down to SY and addressing him informally (normally he addresses SY by his full name, in this scene he drops it to 'Sooyoung-ah' which is how people who are close address each other). He tells SY that he was surprised to see him like this because he thought something else happened and proceeds to forcibly kiss him, and SY immediately pushes him away. SY tells him he's crazy for trying to do something like that in a place like this. TS agrees and tells SY to go home and take off his clothes as soon as he's there and says that SY won't have to look at his face if TS does it from behind. And then TS says that if SY tells him why he wasn't picking up his phone then he'll lessen his punishment. Of course SY is stubborn and refuses to tell TS that he's sulking because he saw TS laugh in front of YW and then we cut to some punishment sex.

While TS is fingering SY he makes comments about SY gaining weight in his lower half because he's been eating so well. He then asks SY again what's made him so stubborn and angry, and that he won't let SY sleep until SY tells him. SY meanwhile continues his stubborn streak and doubles down on refusing to tell TS the reason. SY says "I won't tell you even if I die" and this brings out a strong reaction from TS and he replies "Even if you die? You can't say things like that Sooyoung-ah" and proceeds to hold down his throat. SY starts thinking that he can't breathe, and it's a strange feeling. TS tells SY to breathe, and asks if SY is going to keep protesting. SY briefly breaks away from TS to breathe and thinks about how something like is supposed to be normal to hate, but for some reason SY keeps feeling strange about it. Then TS goes back to choking him and comments on how SY is so tight around him and that this is supposed to be a punishment and yet SY looks like he likes it a lot. SY thinks he can only feel TS going in and out of him, and that he wants this to stop because this feeling (of being fucked while choked) is too strange and then that feeling culminates when he cums hard when TS lets go of his throat. Chapter ends with SY taking some deep breaths as he waits for more (?)

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Here we go, if you didn't think this series can get darker WELCOME to chapter 43. Definitely avoid if breathplay/choking is not your thing, but I love scenes that bring out SY's masochistic/honest side (as stubborn as he is) and opens him up to TS. I feel like he wanted this 'punishment' because it would've been SO easy to just tell TS how he felt, but there might have been a part of him that wanted to see TS's reaction instead and see how TS would punish him (he's had thoughts like this before in previous chapters). However as rough as this sex is I HOPE we get some kind of aftercare in the next chapter and not have SY just go straight back to work like nothing happened.

Until next chapter o/~