I can relate to the feeling of hiting the rock bottom then feeling relief that it cant get...

I can relate to the feeling of hiting the rock bottom then feeling relief that it cant get any worst then this , the struggle trying to reach top , once it all end and you crash to bottom , it doesnt matter any more .

I always have same feeling before exams , stress that I dont want to fail but once exam end and waiting for results , I reach level of stress so high that I say fuck it even if I fail I dont care anymore .

but once the results is out and I do fail again all stress and pain come hitting back harder then before .
and if I do pass , I became unsatisfied with just passing and hoped I had scored higher .


human minds is so werid , never satisfied , if you on top you stressed from failing , if you in middle you stressed wanting to be on top and not fail behind , if you in bottom you either struggle to get out of bottom or you just dont care anymore and waiting to just die and perish of existance .


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dont mind what I wrote just letting out my thoughts , have exam tomorrow , and here reading manga ╮(￣▽￣)╭