just a rant

I was so happy that FL and ML feelings were finally mutual AND they also confessed but then a bucket of ice just poured on me wtf, honestly i dont understand the FL, she gets all blushy with the 2nd ML which is kinda of normal i guess, i mean he was the first person she ever liked but im confused on her actions. shes very contradicting, she wasnt sure if she even liked ML so she talked to her friends and they convinced her she's in love with the ML but then gives up like a day later like WHAT, thats your love? your love couldnt even last a week lmaooo what even, she's just throwing that word around at this point. i was already let down with her actions but then she had this whole section where she talks about the 2nd ML making her heart race but the ML makes her feel secured, doesnt that just mean youre comfortable with ML but 2nd ML makes you feel more passionate? with the wording, it makes me feel like she doesnt like ML romantically and that she's just confused? you know? cuz first of all you werent even sure if you LIKED ML, so like love shouldnt even be in the picture, then you confessed but you like your sibling relationsuip with him right now, so whats the point? youre not going to risk being in a secret relationship so why even bother saying you love him back like literally just a few minutes ago before she ran into ML, she was saying she didnt know what shes feeling but she wants to see his face, doesnt that just mean you like him then rather be it romantic or platonically? because if she was that serious about him she wouldnt have given up that easily like the ML even said so himself. it just seems for me she doesnt know what she wants so instead of suggesting to stay in this weird sibling relationship with him, cuz girl youre too late for that, it was over the moment you decided to say you love him back, shouldnt she just ask him for space and instead of letting him pursue even tho she already said she doesnt want to date, dont go in with his advances, turn him down properly. figure out what youre feeling for 2nd ML and then figure out that mess you made with ML, BUT then again she's just a kid LOL. i probaly said like over 10x pfft