Ahh, this reminds me of me, i said similar things to my parents, twice, and i got called a lunAtic yk, they said i should be sent to a mental asylum...at that i used to write pages and pages of depressing notes...i showed it to them thinking i would get help...but it was such a depressing reaction...as if i was some kind of gibberish...and now we are strangers under the same roof...i dont think i wish to change that anytime soon...i plan to leave this devildom as soon as i had it all finalised...and never look back...its just too lonely sometimes that it hurts to have no one to talk to...
I hope you're all okay. I know it's hard, I've also been there. Not being appreciated and being gaslighted is the worst feeling. I chose a college far away andoved from my family. Sometimes this is also hard but now I have people that do appreciate me in my life. You'll find that too, I wholeheartedly believe it. You'll also have all of us internet people to rant to at any time. Stay strong!!
Well I've warned you not to read this comment so.
I have a deep, deep obsession with 2nd leads in stories that I read. Maybe it's already 2nd Lead Syndrome but DAMN I can never forgive this Wistash bitch. I don't care about if he has a sob backstory, I just want him to suffer.This is because I feel deeply close to Neveah. Being unrecognized by the people or the person you love fvcking cuts you. They give you kindness if they felt that you are on your last end and that gives you hope that one day they will accept you or maybe just look at you and maybe be proud of you. It's not just in a lover perspective but also in a family. Being unappreciated while you give your best, kills your drive to do anything. Just like when your parents compare you to another person who has higher grades, better talent, and better figure; it slowly kills you and then you ended up not doing anything anymore since someone is better anyway, I don't wanna be compared anymore. Now look, I don't really care about anything anymore. My course no longer inspire me. I stopped drawing and dancing. I don't wanna blame them everything but it just hurts that when I told them what I felt, they just told be that it's not true and just brush it off. I just hope that I will have a job that makes good money to get me out of here 'cause I don't wanna kill what is left of me.
So yah no to Wistash since it brought up my trauma (〜 ̄△ ̄)〜