before i start with my rant, tw// sexual assault, and trauma
so i originally started this manga because i liked how the uke looked. once seme kissed seiichirou and he had that kind of reaction i was like oh okay i see what's going on there's some sexy shit. (keep in mind i was still skeptical as to why the seme got turned off by people begging, but i assumed this would be solved with a simple conversation) so i kept reading. this is very much so have a psychological tag, there's a lot going on here and it's well written but just a tad chaotic. so before i get into the sexual assault scene, i have seen a lot of people saying they want to punch the seme because he's trash and whatnot and i just want to explain something. the seme has MASSIVE childhood trauma. imagine, at five years old or something, your mom refusing to tell you that she loved you while all you did was tell her that you loved her? although it may not impacted him growing up (this happens with most childhood trauma cases, i would know, i have a spicy childhood too) it often will come out when a person is maturing, and as we can see with the seme, he's had lots of sex. now what this has to do with sex is the fact that many kinks or turn offs actually have a lot to do with our own childhood experiences. (e.g: if you were mostly ignored as a child, you might be into exhibitionism, because of the fact that you want people to "see" you) yes, it's crazy, but that's the human mind for you. so the author took a lot of consideration into this assault scene which btw RESPECT because not everyone does, it's usually just somewhat of a disgusting turn on for people. and, i am in no way shape or form trying to defend the seme's actions during this scene, i'm just delving into the mechanics behind it, and explaining why he did it. anyways. it's obvious he liked the uke, but once triggered (a trigger can be anything, smell, view, sound, literally anything that your brain will associate with your trauma) the seme went into an episode, where he acted on impulse and did such in fear. ahhh i'm getting tired so i might explain more later but for now gngn
before i start with my rant, tw// sexual assault, and trauma
so i originally started this manga because i liked how the uke looked. once seme kissed seiichirou and he had that kind of reaction i was like oh okay i see what's going on there's some sexy shit. (keep in mind i was still skeptical as to why the seme got turned off by people begging, but i assumed this would be solved with a simple conversation) so i kept reading. this is very much so have a psychological tag, there's a lot going on here and it's well written but just a tad chaotic. so before i get into the sexual assault scene, i have seen a lot of people saying they want to punch the seme because he's trash and whatnot and i just want to explain something. the seme has MASSIVE childhood trauma. imagine, at five years old or something, your mom refusing to tell you that she loved you while all you did was tell her that you loved her? although it may not impacted him growing up (this happens with most childhood trauma cases, i would know, i have a spicy childhood too) it often will come out when a person is maturing, and as we can see with the seme, he's had lots of sex. now what this has to do with sex is the fact that many kinks or turn offs actually have a lot to do with our own childhood experiences. (e.g: if you were mostly ignored as a child, you might be into exhibitionism, because of the fact that you want people to "see" you) yes, it's crazy, but that's the human mind for you. so the author took a lot of consideration into this assault scene which btw RESPECT because not everyone does, it's usually just somewhat of a disgusting turn on for people. and, i am in no way shape or form trying to defend the seme's actions during this scene, i'm just delving into the mechanics behind it, and explaining why he did it. anyways. it's obvious he liked the uke, but once triggered (a trigger can be anything, smell, view, sound, literally anything that your brain will associate with your trauma) the seme went into an episode, where he acted on impulse and did such in fear. ahhh i'm getting tired so i might explain more later but for now gngn