I'm rereading this story now, and I mean... it's interesting how Taku starts off being por...

wonuyaaa February 18, 2021 12:56 am

I'm rereading this story now, and I mean... it's interesting how Taku starts off being portrayed in a sort of more "positive" light. Which is the opposite compared to Joowon (though his sex tape shit was creepy to me from the get go. bl readers will just excuse anything lol)

Anyway, as the story proceeds though: Taku just regresses further and further. idk how his stans continued to cape for him honestly lol. Like is it cause this man brought Heesoo food when he was sick and said a fake "I love you" to HS like a week after meeting him?? Meanwhile he's talking to his friend all like "I just want to see the story he writes when i leave him" LMAO. Is playing with people fun Taku? :D The writer only chooses to show this LATER though, so I think taku stans with no reading comprehension cant connect the dots at all. Or the scene where he comforts Haesoo who is crying? You go like "awww". But then LATER, you see Taku's thoughts during the moment like: "It felt good to see you sad. You needed me because of your unhappiness". tf??? And don't get me started on him revealing his intention with the sex tape, or how he acted during the breakup which are later into the story. lol yikes.

Meanwhile, Joowon from the start: he was portrayed as the 'bad guy'. When in reality, he wasn't truly. He DEFINITELY had his flaws like being too immature, possessive and arrogant. Like when he says "You can't live without me", or how he says Haesoo will get tired of whoever he dates and come crawling back to him every time. He was an asshat to Haesoo in this regard. But the truth was, Haesoo with his manipulative ways constantly trying to make Joowon angry and jealous, plus wanting Joowon to suffer because he thought he was the only one hurting, was ALSO just as much at fault for their unhealthy dynamic. The pain inflicted wasn't one sided. Yet Haesoo's insecurities and self-victimization narrate the story, saying that Joowon doesnt care, Joowon has it easy, etc. Even when Joowon is hurting too in this open r/s, wanting to tell Haesoo he loves him for years but never being able to due to their complicated situation n his fears.

But anyway. Joowon started off pretty flawed, but then just gets continuous development over the course of the story and owns up to his mistakes. His development is realistically portrayed and kinda carries LOH on its back in S2-3. We also get a lot more on his background and WHY he did the things he did. Which doesn't excuse his actions, but it does help us understand him more. So yeah... Joowon really spends the whole story since the breakup reflecting on himself, giving Haesoo the space he wants, and he suffers over and over literally just to protect Haesoo?? Even when Haesoo essentially told him he's not worth it, and he doesn't love him enough to endure their relationship. And Joowon STILL calls him up to say "I'm always on your side. I'm all yours". Bitch drop Haesoo and take me instead! lmao. Okay I kind of went on a tangent there, but I had a lot of these thoughts rereading this story.

Responses
    nivianda February 18, 2021 2:44 am

    Omg thank you for stating this!
    From me that only read a few chapters, I just dont like taku from the start, i really dont know why but fr ch 1 I only support joowon, it is sad that haesoo is so toxic too him (in my eyes tho, sorry but its the truth that he's toxic to joowon, sob). I stop reading this at ch 40-ish bcs I just cant stand haesoo and taku made joowon broke like really why haesoo is so selfish and taku is really just not know shame at all (again, its my opinion only). Then I brave myself to read again only theb to be hurt agaib and again oh you wont know how much I suffer reading this bcs them. But then finally I got to see light. Haesoo is finally understand joowon's importance in his life. Though joowon deserve better, but well, I just happy he got what he wants finally. I still dont like taku and haesoo, I only read this because of joowon only ┗( ╥﹏╥ )┛

    edelric February 18, 2021 4:39 am

    well stated well stated. was kinda mad at haesoo for a while, but haesoo went through a lot of shit with his mom that messed him up big time. and he too admitted he was in the wrong and grew and changed a lot over the course of the story, and finally showed how much he truly cared for joowon. hope he treats our mans well now that theyre together.

    jungzi February 18, 2021 8:44 am

    THIS. I don't understand people who have supposedly read this story but still say they hate Joowon and praise Taku. I personally never understood why Taku got so much love other than because of his looks because when I read the story I didn't find anything likeable about him. I might have missed out on something because I was also creeped out by the sex tape stunt which made me wary of and dislike his character, but I really can't think of anything likeable about him.

    All the characters had issues and weren't flawless. But I'd say Joowon was the least problematic among the 3.

    wonuyaaa February 19, 2021 3:55 am
    well stated well stated. was kinda mad at haesoo for a while, but haesoo went through a lot of shit with his mom that messed him up big time. and he too admitted he was in the wrong and grew and changed a lot o... edelric

    agreeeeed. i do like haesoo but yeah. he was shitty in how he treated joowon, and he changed a lot.
    gonna have to fight haesoo if he does not give joowon the love he deserves. caues i know joowon would literally do ANYTHING for him

    wonuyaaa February 19, 2021 4:00 am
    THIS. I don't understand people who have supposedly read this story but still say they hate Joowon and praise Taku. I personally never understood why Taku got so much love other than because of his looks becaus... jungzi

    hating joowon and praising taku /shudders/
    i'll never ever trust ppl that do this shit

    anyway yeah taku was kinda a creep to me from the get go. and i always forget that he lowkey stalked haesoo?? like he saw him in that store, started reading all his stories, specifically requested haesoo to be his interviewer when he went to kr (when he never does interviews), and then made advances towards HS in a professional relationship?? like yeah that's not weird in the SLIGHTEST lol

    wonuyaaa February 19, 2021 5:40 am
    hating joowon and praising taku /shudders/ i'll never ever trust ppl that do this shitanyway yeah taku was kinda a creep to me from the get go. and i always forget that he lowkey stalked haesoo?? like he saw hi... wonuyaaa

    made advances ***fully knowing that haesoo only had eyes for someone else***. even weirder. you could justify this if he genuinely loved haesoo and couldnt help it (somehow. like love at first sight? love from just reading hs's writing? lol). but he didnt. he literally just wanted to toy around with the situation/haesoo. and he got attached later.

    jungzi February 19, 2021 3:52 pm
    made advances ***fully knowing that haesoo only had eyes for someone else***. even weirder. you could justify this if he genuinely loved haesoo and couldnt help it (somehow. like love at first sight? love from ... wonuyaaa

    True. The readers who thought he approached Haesoo because he cared about him and his well-being were probably also on something weird. And even after his intentions were plainly revealed some still thought of him as "poor baby Taku played by Haesoo, he deserves the whole world".
    The guy stalked Haesoo, forced his way into a relationship, not even caring if his actions would only further damage Haesoo emotionally, and just because he was interested in a story which he wanted to change and make it about him.
    But just because he later got feelings for Haesoo, he becomes a good guy with great development and I should pity him. How? Why?
    Oh well, they really fell for his manipulation and can go write their fanfiction of their baby and his new lover. He can be their angel there.

    wonuyaaa February 28, 2021 3:58 am
    True. The readers who thought he approached Haesoo because he cared about him and his well-being were probably also on something weird. And even after his intentions were plainly revealed some still thought of ... jungzi

    ohh i forgot to reply to this-- but i think it would've been less stalkerish if it wasn't a professional relationship he was trying to break to get to haesoo.... like leo said he has a habit of getting into shit with his models. it's just weird T^T LOL. but maybe that's just bl logic to excuse that lol.
    anyway.... i remember there's literally a phrase in this story where taku says he notices the forlorn look in haesoo's eyes after the joohae breakup... and that it makes him crave haesoo more ??? forlorn = pitifully sad and abandoned or lonely. THIS is the Haesoo you crave so much? The one that's most miserable? lol. the sheer NUMBER of taku quotes in this story that add onto/share the same vibe as that quote is funny to me.

    honestly i think it'd be cool if taku stans liked taku so much as the character he's ACTUALLY WRITTEN AS in this story. the many kids i see on tiktok that trash joowon with every breath, and then treat taku like some god given gift honestly just seem to like a made up version of him from their heads. not what the story shows.

    calm thyself February 28, 2021 4:30 am

    ily for making this and that line, "Bitch drop Haesoo and take me instead! lmao." hit me in so many ways lmfao