So... My browser deleted my long comments twice ;-; so I'm a little tired now...
But feel free to pm me if you have any other questions regarding this illness. As a patient myself I think awareness is important so I try to be pretty open about it! And if you think that you could be having symptoms you can also Pm me! I'd glad to listen.
Even so... If you don't have the courage to approach me I can tell you that no one will help you more than a therapist. Please take care of your mental health and approach one!
Greetings.
oh woww..i have some questions if ur comfortable w/ answering..
well first,, how many alters do you have¿
did you always have DID?
you said you were able to talk with them like in an innerspace, how is that?.. idk how to phrase it, but can you like see them?
SORRY IF THESE ARE LIKE RLLY PERSONAL.. im just really curious
It's ok. It's not unconfortable anymore, thank you for being considerate.
1.-After absortion I was alone. But after that I split again. At the moment, we're only 3 and I have total control. Before that we were really a lot.
2.-No. As I said before I'm actually an alternative personality, so "I" was not the one with personalities. I can't remember everything that this body experienced, but rumours say that the first split was when they were 6 years old. I cannot confirm this, tho. There's a possibility that "our" memories were altered to fit the story appropriately.
3.-Literally saw them: their features, clothes, details, everything. There was a lot of infighting, so we settled a council to discuss desitions (Before absortion) regarding both our inner world and the exterior world. It was more or less like in this manga (that scene with the table), so I found it curious. Just as a general matter that I learned while on therapy: If you're able to see them in real life (Exterior world) is not DID, it could be schizophrenia or another kind of dellusion. If you see them "inside your head" then is (could be) DID.
oooh, thanks for sharing!! i have one last question,, u said that rn you have total control so does that mean that like the others can’t switch at anytime, or are you able to stop or make it happen? sorry, i’m not sure if i phrased that right
I understand what you mean. I have control over them fully. They're not able to switch without my permission... Well, maybe one of them can, but is not willing. He has the "power" but that doesn't mean it'll use it unless it's an emergency or an inminent danger.
Both of them are not interested in the outside world, so there's actually no switching. Kind of. It would be a pretty extensive explanation what kind of life they're living; but for this purpose they don't interact with the outside world. Even if that one wants to do it, if I'm on my full self I can stop him immediately. Even so we have a great relationship so that's not a problem.
It's important to state that the important part of overcoming DID is not to erese the alternative personalities, but to learn how to cope with the "real" world: danger, anger, sadness and all that stuff. I don't allow them to live my life, even if it's painful. I allow myself to have them with me because of how much I care about them (or well, one of them the other one it's a complex topic) and because I think it's selfish to end his life for my wellbeing. He went through such hardships just to protect me, just eresing him when I was better felt wrong. But I try to not engage on toxic mentalities, leaving him any kind of burden because It's not healthy for myself. Because of this, the "switching" part stopped tobeing a problem. I also confronted the thrauma that started all this thing. And I can say now I'm a happier, much stable and fulfilled person.
And again: This is MY way. It's different for each patient, as people's minds are all different from each others (And thrauma + life experiences develop in different ways).
I'm actually watching this MCU serie right now "Wandavision", I recommend it. I'm amazed because is more or less how we experienced our "inner world". Maybe that can give you an idea somehow
oo alri i understand more clearly now,, thank u smm for sharing! and i’ve heard of wandavision alot, i’ll defo check it out now tytyy
I really appreciate both the author and translator to try to stick so heavily to the actual reality of this illness. I can understand that when you write something you're specifically telling the story of those characters and not speaking for all the situations out there (as this is not an actual medical magazine, it's intend is to entertain) so I'm fine about how this turned out but that extra knowledge placed by translator on how to (respectfully) differentiate fiction and reality amazed me.
I'm honestly happy.
Overall, I guess both author and translator explained all O well that I don't have a lot of pinpoints to do, just maybe certain add-ons through my personal experience.
1.-It is possible to switch that fast (talking about the fanservice character). It's not usual and is TIRING AS FUCK. Usually it happens when a trigger is activated, or there's a heavy conflict about what the body should do
Between 2 or more personalities. So that situation could happen, but in my experience I could just lost full conciousness or become unable to move after regaining control of my body. It also depends on how closely related or how "complete" are the personalities fighting.
2.-Translator said that the tablet scene was a visual representation for viewers but it's just metaphorically. In my personal experience this is untrue: I am able to see and speak regularly with the others on an actual inner space/world. I've also know few other people that can, but this is not the case for everyone. The amount of "world building" is also depending on each person. If you've seen Wandavision that's a pretty accurate depiction on how an inner world could be perceived. And if you haven't seen it, what you're expecting? It's awesome!
3.-Reintegration don't happen like that. Just to let you know that this is an expedite storytelling due the short amount of chapters they have, but reintegration can be really, REALLY slow and it has a lot of side effects while happening. It could also be spontaneous, but usually when this happen sooner or later it breaks down again as it's not correctly processed. Also, it's kind of unhealthy to reintegrate because of an outside person. It can be of course a support on your therapy, but in real life this could carry a lot of bad consequences, starting with co-dependance or even an unconscious grudge. The best way to do it is because you want to do it, and If you don't want to that's ok too. It's hella needed to go to therapy, but you don't go to "fix" DID, you go there to help you be healthier and happier. Everyone is happy in different ways, so if you decide to keep your personalities that's completely fine, as long as there's peace and respect between them and on yourself.
How long can mangago comments go? Well, I'm gonna post another one right below this one just to be on the safe end