Dudeee istg we’re the same.
I thought I was the only one lol, the toxic relationship just gives me this feeling and I end up going for it lol
i really thought i was the only weird one ╥﹏╥
Oooh, yeaaa, ur right fr. It mainly bc of the possessiveness i like reading stuff like that, i want a relationship in which the person im dating is really into me, ofc not in a toxic way, not trying to normalize or romanticize toxic relationships. But i want the person im dating to love me wholeheartedly and never cheat ( this is a big one for me) , not be obsessive ofc but i am really insecure so if a person is really into me bc of me ofc i will be happy. Its just translated in my reading to bit of an extreme. Ofc, physically and mentally abusive relationships r never ok. The things i read r never something i would want to happen in real life, that why i only read fiction about it. I also hate reading about girls, they r all so fake and over sexualized ( not that some yaoi is not like that) and being one i cant get over. So i read bl because it is the next best thing.
Everyone talking about how toxic and shitty the relationship is but i think somethings wrong with me bc i love reading about toxic relationships. Especially those with fuckbuddies/ sex friends or no strings attatched relationship. And the two ppl in those type of relationships end up together even when one of them is shit and they hurt each other somehow. Like idk, i like that, especially when they finally get together and the jealousy.