Took me a second to realize that Law meant what he said about only wanting Jesse in his sights as he died. He had to “kill” Jesse to reset the simulation over and over again hoping Jesse would choose him and endured being proven again and again that Jesse would never choose him even if he made their circumstances more equal and made himself the only one Jesse could rely on. Jesse couldn’t trust Law’s personality because he was all over the place. To Jesse his memory is wiped each reset but Law’s been going through what feels like 20 years in a single day hence what seems like split personality is probably varied reactions to all the different repeated scenarios overlapping. If Law, the “admin”, loses sight of reality and dies in the simulation he dies for real. I think he reached his breaking point, chose not to test reality by burning himself that last day, and was giving up but Jesse finally caught on, wanted to die with him, and finally chose him. He implied Jesse would be stuck in the simulation if he died (maybe true, maybe not), so having gotten the love that he wanted he quit the simulation, was able to let Jesse go, and lied about being sick of Jesse and no longer having feelings. But in the end seems like he was ready to die all alone with the false images of Jesse on loop in his mind in that room.
Took me a second to realize that Law meant what he said about only wanting Jesse in his sights as he died. He had to “kill” Jesse to reset the simulation over and over again hoping Jesse would choose him and endured being proven again and again that Jesse would never choose him even if he made their circumstances more equal and made himself the only one Jesse could rely on. Jesse couldn’t trust Law’s personality because he was all over the place. To Jesse his memory is wiped each reset but Law’s been going through what feels like 20 years in a single day hence what seems like split personality is probably varied reactions to all the different repeated scenarios overlapping. If Law, the “admin”, loses sight of reality and dies in the simulation he dies for real. I think he reached his breaking point, chose not to test reality by burning himself that last day, and was giving up but Jesse finally caught on, wanted to die with him, and finally chose him. He implied Jesse would be stuck in the simulation if he died (maybe true, maybe not), so having gotten the love that he wanted he quit the simulation, was able to let Jesse go, and lied about being sick of Jesse and no longer having feelings. But in the end seems like he was ready to die all alone with the false images of Jesse on loop in his mind in that room.