Little rant about myself

Letmesniffyourpantsu January 28, 2021 10:44 am

Ok so I'm sorry for posting this here but this is the only place that I can do it and I just needed to talk about it...

Me and my bf have been together now for half a year but had something going on for longer. But I'm a very shy person and am used to be very silent and don't show affection (I just can't show it whether I like something or not even though I do) and he told me that he's very unsure whether I enjoy what he does or not. He's always the one that kisses me first or starts sex. He's so insecure about that and I'm soo sorry for that. I really want to innitiate everything, but like I just can't. I'm trying it soo hard and I'm getting a little better but there's still this blockade within me...
I think it's my insecurity. I just can't see what he likes in me and am always so scared that he will find someone better than me. And idk...

Does anyone have any tips for me? I would be very gratefull...

OH and sorry for the broken English it's not my mother tongue..

Responses
    Rose (not my real name ofc) January 28, 2021 11:12 am

    I think it’d be best to be honest with him cus that’ll get rid of your mental baggage and his insecurities, though of course that’s very hard for a lot of ppl and not very helpful. And well, he seems to be willing to go through this for you and you too, so that sounds like a good relationship, and he chose you over whoever that someone is. Or just tell him that you care for him but you’re insecure too, so the reasons

    Hisoka_is_Daddy January 28, 2021 11:22 am

    That sounds like a Bl Manga I read once.. It's one of my favs.
    http://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/chiya_s_just_an_unstable_guy/
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    As a 19 year old Virgin I have no advice I could give you but when it comes to being shy I can relate..
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    My ex and I dated for about 1 year and within that year I probably said only 20 sentences to him. I Can't communicate worth a crap. Whenever we was together I'd text him instead of talking.. he'd always touch me in ways I wasn't ready for and I was too shy to say NO.. The perv couldn't even keep his hands to himself in the middle of freaking Walmart.. Long story short.. Me never talking started to cause a few issues and we ended up having a ugly break up.┗( T﹏T )┛ I just blame that on falling for a crappy guy.
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    I hope you get the answers you need and live a long happyyyy lifeee I also didnt want this post to be negative.. I just wanted to share my experience with being shy..
    I'm sorry you have to go through it.
    ITS SUCKS....

    Letmesniffyourpantsu January 28, 2021 11:26 am
    I think it’d be best to be honest with him cus that’ll get rid of your mental baggage and his insecurities, though of course that’s very hard for a lot of ppl and not very helpful. And well, he seems to b... Rose (not my real name ofc)

    Thanks for the advice
    We did talk about it a little bit I wasn't as honest nvm I was honest but I guess I just had a blackout and left out pretty important things.. I'll talk to him about it again

    Letmesniffyourpantsu January 28, 2021 11:29 am
    That sounds like a Bl Manga I read once.. It's one of my favs. http://www.mangago.me/read-manga/chiya_s_just_an_unstable_guy/.As a 19 year old Virgin I have no advice I could give you but when it comes to being... Hisoka_is_Daddy

    I'm sooo sorry you had to go through this.. I hope you'll find someone that understands you and will help you instead of force things on you