For yaoi recommendation only

Now that I think, the whole sexual tension makes a great part in this,
but it somehow captured the reality of same sex relationships or so I think.
I've been racking my brain remembering a story without smut there's f××inggg nonee that comes to my mind, should I just let fate get MMD on the path of smut or pray to Gods of yaoism T-T
Now I feel so dumb -_- pls God of yaoi bestow me yaoi with no kiss and sex and a depth approach to the feelings that make yaoi possible